Where are you going...

I took a deep breath and asked him, "Where are you going? It's the middle of the night. You'll get hurt or something if you leave right now!"

"I don't care. I have to leave this so-called home. It's suffocating me. Creativity? Life? Imagination? That's all nonexistent here. All people care about here is the result, not the process. Me? I want more in life than the product, I want the knowledge, experience, and memories I gain from the process; I didn't know that was so much to ask for."

"Okay, I understand you but y-"

"Do you? Do you really? Aren't you part of them? The people who only look at the surface? I mean, are you actually enjoying your life? Do you do everything because you WANT to or because your parents, friends, and community TOLD you to?" 

"How could you say that? I'm just worried about you. It's really dark and you could get hurt on the way. You know what they told us, traveling at night is dangerous. We could get mugged or ju-"

"Mugged? Mugged from what? Our conformity? I would THANK whoever robbed me of my blandness. Wouldn't you? Everyone around here is the same, we all do the same damn thing. No one knows how to think for themselves. Everyo-"

"Stop it," I managed inbetween sobs. "Do you think I want to stay either? No, but you know what? My little sister is here and I can't let the world do the same thing it did to us to her. I want her to grow up with a mind of her own. 

He looked at me with a sympathetic expression, but before I could say another word, he turned around, facing the pitch black, and walked away. I only looked at his leftover footprints embedded into the soil, disappearing into the dark, never to come back again.

Kutless - What Faith Can Do

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u1JBSQMkQEo

It's a really nice, touching song that you should listen to regardless of religion. It may really help those of you who really need it.

Despite the lyrics, the song is aesthetically pleasing and I think you will like it (:

 A new day can bring new beginnings.

Some thoughts

I haven't posted in a while because I was busy with finals last week and Spring Break was this week so I was busy having some relaxation I haven't had in a while. However, along with my break, I've had some time to think and play some computer games.

Thinking is never good for me as my thoughts wander off to areas that are depressing, too happy, or too psychological. One of my train of thoughts took me to the land of gaming. Why do I like to play computer games was one of my questions. At first it wasn't meant to have any kind of deep meaning but as I thought about it I found a deeper meaning in my shallow question. I have an infatuation with games because it helps me escape from my real life filled with stress and constant situations demanding my time and effort. The fake game world allowed me to escape for a while in the time I was spending time with my friends online. I guess this may be the same answer for everyone else. Although we dislike to admit it, games are just another way to escape reality. That is nothing to be ashamed of though since we all need a break from our real lives at one point, right? It can almost be seen as another healthy coping skill.

My Spring Break also led me to thoughts about college and the pressure that several students undergo due to the pressure of being accepted into a prestigious college. My question is: Will getting into a good college a guarantee of being successful in life? Isn't it all based on your willingness? I am not undermining the importance of college but this was just a tidbit of the questions percolating.

Have a nice rest of your Spring Break!

Story of My Love/Life

The blushes, the pushing, the urging,

all only in the beginning.

The giggles, the talks, the gossiping,

all only in the beginning.

The intensity in the beginning,

the feeling that it would never end.

That is all only in the beginning.

For those feelings will soon fade away like they usually tend.

The suspense pushes on as the time flows,

as every chat and word from your crush is embedded in your mind.

You do not think your crush will easily go.

Who would let him go for he's so sweet, smart, and kind.

As love nears the end so does the friendship that used to be there.

It's crushed like the dreams that were once embraced.

Now there are darting eyes and whispers everywhere.

So your true feelings will now have to be encased.

When love is done and the pain has taken its toll,

you start to wish for time to reverse.

But sadly, time is in a permanent mold.

Due to the short-lived fun you had before, all words exchanged are terse.

Be careful with your crushes,

be careful with your feelings.

Be careful with everything that feels quite warm and luscious.

For your genuine words may forever be in a sealing. 

Life

Life causes grief, happiness, stress, bliss, wonder, excitement, questions, answers, explanations, and all sorts of other topics often discussed by philosophers. In the Bible, it says that humans came from Adam and Eve. Meanwhile, in science, it explains that humans evolved from primates. Whether or not either explanation is the truth, we, humans, exist right now and are seen as the "superior" mammal. Why were we given life though? Why did God or the Big Bang create the earth, the solar system, and the universe? These are all questions that humans have still failed to answer but are still wondering.

One question I always have for myself is: why am I me? Why was I born as who I am right now? Why was I not someone else, in another body, family, environment? Sometimes I feel like there is no special reason and at other times, I think that I have something special to do here on earth before I die in this body. Whether I help an entire country or I merely help one person, I am meant to make a change, no matter how cliche that may sound. Please comment if you have anything to say although this post may be very short compared to the others~

Our Journey

The true sign of intelligence is not knowledge but imagination.
Albert Einstein 






Faith is a knowledge within the heart, beyond the reach of proof.
Khalil Gibran 

Society - Huckleberry Finn

Recently, I was obligated to read the novel, The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain. Although the book was entertaining and mundane simultaneously: causing me to fall asleep at some parts and be engaged in others. Overall, I learned a valuable lesson and that is contained in the one word: society.

Mark Twain was trying to make a point through his book by satirizing humankind. Not only did he satirize slavery, but he also did the same to other concepts of society as a whole. The first thing was our herd-like mentality.

The herd-like mentality was blatantly addressed in Mark Twain's idea that was voiced through Colonel Sherburn when the colonel was chastising the community on their way of following even a "half a man."

"You didn't want to come. The average man don't like trouble and danger. You don't like trouble and danger. But if only half a man - like Buck Harkness, there - shouts 'Lynch him! Lynch him!' you're afraid to back down - afraid you'll be found out to be what you are - cowards - and so you raise a yell, and hang yourselves onto that half-a-man's coat-tail, and come raging up here, swearing what big things you're going to do. The pitifulest thing out is a mob; that's what an army is - a mob; they don't fight with courage that's born in them, but with courage that's borrowed from their mass, and from their officers. But a mob without any man at the head of it is beneath pitifulness." (pg. 146) - Colonel Sherburn.

This paragraph shows how the society that we have today is very dependent upon each other. Nobody truly has their individuality since they are all focused on the herd, what the mass does, is this alright, and so on. I think this is still the case today in our society as well. Instead of doing things for ourselves, we tend to wait until someone else does it, thus following their footsteps. Since there is either no one doing the work or everyone at the same time, doing the same work, there is no room for progress. I think this is the problem that is prevalent in the school that I attend. Many of us are worried about what the person next to us is doing. 'If that person does something, then I should too.' Or even if the student does not think that, the parent may, just hoping that following the next person's footsteps would be doing them some good. However, that is not the case. We must fall into our specialties if we are to get anywhere in life or be happy in our lives. We must learn how to think for ourselves just as Huck Finn has learned to do in this novel.

Huckleberry Finn is a very impressionable young man in the beginning of this book but he still remains to express his own thoughts despite the fact that he is a child who should listen to his white elders. He is forced to be "sivilized" and follow the footsteps of his pap who believes in many old-fashioned concepts even for the time setting of the book. However, when Huck journeys on the Mississippi River, he learns to think for himself. At the end of the book, Huck knows that he must think for himself and avoids Aunt Sally when she decides that she would keep him in her care to educate and "sivilize" him. The society in this novel gives Huck a very deformed conscience despite the fact that they are set in a society where slavery is considered to be common. In my opinion, Huck still goes down the right path despite the influences of society around him. He learns that friendship and the value of the person is greater than what society says. I think that this is what we must learn to do. People as a whole nowadays should form their own justifications and opinions.

"Stand up for what you think is right, even if you're standing alone." - Anonymous.